R is my favorite alphabet! Because my name starts with R and today in the April A to Z Blogging Challenge, it is the day of the letter R. I thought of writing something exciting and fun but I am not in the best of moods today. I was organizing my makeup and despite the fact that I love makeup and organizing, today the task made my spirits sink low. And let me tell you, it was because I was feeling regret! Regret of buying things I did not like just to test out for my beauty blog, things that I bought and forgot about and things that I bought solely because they were on sale it felt like a good deal. I know beauty bloggers have a lot of stuff and my “collection”, being a little above average, is no way near that but I still felt like I wasted money. And this happens every few days (not necesarrily when I am PMSing!) So I am going to write about regret and how it kills joy from our life. This post is more to lift up my spirits than it is about the blogging challenge.
Regret is defined as an emotion where you feel sad, repentant, or disappointed over (something that has happened or been done, esp. a loss or missed opportunity)
I am sure we have all felt this from time to time in life. And we all know that regret is futile and we should not be engaging our energies in it. But we still do. Mulling about the past, thinking about how bad a decision was (or the lack of taking decision). Regret is useless because it is a wastage of the present. We cannot go back and change anything in the past and wasting more time on those things leads to stress in the present. It is spirit dampener!
I hate feeling regret over the things I have said, done, not done or felt. And in an effort to reduce the amount of guilt and regret from my past, I have stopped letting myself wander in those moments. I switch myself back to the present where I CAN change something. And my hatred for regret also lead to the birth of both of my blogs.
I had been wanting to start a blog since 2009 (I have already narrated this story a billion times) but I didn’t until the end of 2012!
And the feeling of regret did not just go away. It kept on eating my energy. Everytime I saw blogs that I defined as successful start anywhere until late 2012, I would feel bad about not starting my blog earlier. I felt angry at myself for not taking those opportunities. Blogging takes a lot of time and even though it is an ever evolving thing, I feel that the first few months are really crucial. So I wasted a lot of time. If I had not regret take over, I could have spent a lot more time in learning things about blogging, probably blogging more! It wasn’t until Februray 2014 that I released all the ghosts of my blogging past. And I have never felt better.
Lately I have just tried to keep my slate clean. There is a lot of stuff I could have done but I didn’t and that’s ok, I CAN do it now! If I cannot, there is not point wasting time on it. There are plenty of things to do in my PRESENT MOMENT and I am going to focus on those!